by Dana
by Dana
Today my oldest child turns 16. Let me start by saying this Momma is in NO WAY ready for that. My sweet BABY is almost a man. I shudder just to think about it.
I can remember when he was a tiny baby, with brown curls and a cherub grin. Everyone who saw him thought he was the prettiest baby boy and yes, some even asked if he was a girl. I didn’t mind. To me, he was the most beautiful baby ever.
The day he was born, he looked like a tiny little wailing alien. He loved to be held and his Grandmother and Papa were always toting him around. He was well-loved by us all.
He was my emergency c-section. His delivery was a traumatic one. The doctors almost lost us both. I remember feeling the pain and feeling myself begin to float as they prepped me for his delivery. I was put to sleep and when I awoke it was all over.
The first thing I saw of my newborn boy was a photograph. I wasn’t able to get out of bed and he wasn’t able to come see Mommy for 6 long hours. His tiny body had suffered so much stress that he had to go into the warmer and be monitored right away. I remember just being thankful he was alive and well.
The first time I held him, I was in LOVE. He was the sweetest little thing. He loved to nuzzle and he refused to sleep alone. I don’t think he slept one time in his crib.
Isn’t funny how I can remember that period of time like it was yesterday? Time passes so quickly. Soon that little baby is going become a man. Time is too short.
I’ve watched him grow every day. I chose to homeschool him because I couldn’t bare to pass these moments that God blessed me with to someone else. Selfishly, I wanted to keep these years all to myself and I am so glad that I have. These memories will last us both for a lifetime.
This young man who has blessed me these past 16 years is like no other. I used to wonder why I had a son first and not a daughter but now I know. He’s been my rock, my supporter, my strength through so many things. He’s quiet and a true peacemaker.
I honestly could not have made it through these past 16 years without this wonderful young man by my side. He’s helped me with his sisters, our home, keep up with everything and just been a friend and a loving son to me all the way. I tell him all the time that one day he’s going to make some girl a wonderful husband. A lucky one she will be and yes, I plan to let her know that!
So here is to my soon-to-be 16 year old. May we continue to enjoy the short time we have left together and many years afterwards. I love you my son – more than you can ever know and I thank God every day for the blessing you have been to my life.
by Dana
You see in all my failed relationships, the other person has always pointed the failure towards me, yet I never felt the failure was completely my fault. The men in my life have always tried to make me feel that I was the problem, that it wasn’t them. They have told me that I would continue to find the same problems over and over because, well, that problem was me.
Honestly, I was beginning to believe them. Then Donald came along and he has worked to change my thinking. Trust me, it’s been really hard for him to do but this movie confirmed what he’s told me since we met.
You see, it was never me that was the problem. It wasn’t really them that was the problem either. The real problem was that these guys I was with were never meant for me. Since they weren’t right for me, our relationships could never work. It wasn’t anything either of us did, it was simply the wrong person for me to be with.
Now I know that’s easy to see now but it wasn’t so easy to see when I was with them. And walking away doesn’t make it easy to see when you have been told over and over that you are the problem. Sometimes it takes a HUGE wake-up call, like hearing it said straight out in a random movie, to make you realize, “Hey, I’m not the problem here!”
We can never be happy with the wrong person. God created us each to be unique and He created each of us to fit one other unique individual. That individual is our other half, the love of our life, our soulmate.
I’m blessed to have truly found mine, to know of his love for me, for my children, for our family and our life together. Sure things aren’t always perfect because we’ve both been brainwashed by being in the wrong relationship before finding one another and finding our right relationship, but we work hard to heal and love and move forward together. We are learning to forgive, to depend on each other and to embrace our life as it should be with one another.
When love is right, it’s just right. You know it wholeheartedly. I’m so thankful to have found my love in Don and also to have found this healing piece of truth from something so simple as this.
by Dana
Well, I suppose from this post you can guess that I do. I go completely off track with my thinking and I feel that my brain is constantly going 100% all of the time. I am always thinking of something and yet of nothing at all. Not of importance at least.
Then there is the forgetfulness. Sometimes I think so much that I forget mid-sentence what I was just thinking about. For example, today I was talking to Donald, asking him about his day. I was about to ask him something specific and mid-thought I completely forgot!
Now this isn’t a big deal for something small but forgetfulness and randomness because an issue with bigger things. Like forgetting to call in a medication script for my daughter. Or forgetting to write out a blog post for the week or for a review item. Forgetting you made an appointment for Thursday. (Yes, I did that one this week! Eek!!)
I often feel that my blog posts are random as well. I’d like to find a way to make them more structured and more focused but how can you do that when you have trouble focusing yourself?! I contribute it to my undiagnosed ADD. Or is it ADHD? I’m pretty sure I have one of those and I know my poor kids do as well.
So how do you manage to keep your thoughts in order and stop being random with them? How do you create posts that are structured and more organized? Any tips you have for me? Feel free to leave me any ideas you may have in a comment below. I look forward to all of your suggestions.
On an additional note we’ve reached 700 blog posts at Luv’N Lambert Life and have many more to come! This particular post is my first written and posted with Open Live Writer. So far I’m loving this blog writing software and look forward to using it for my posts from now on. All the ease of blogging with a format like a word processor program. Added benefit is that there is a word count tool built in too! (So far this post is at 389 words and counting.) You can even link up and add images to your posts right from Open Live Writer. Awesome right?
Well that’s it from me tonight. Hope you all have a blessed week!
Dana
by Dana
Today is the last day of November. The past month has been busy for us. Work has started to return to normal and life is going back to how it was before Hurricane Matthew paid his visit in October.
I’m thankful this month is ending. I am looking forward to December and then to a new year in 2017. November has had some serious ups and downs for us.
One thing that happened is that Emmalee’s therapy has ended. I’m proud of her. She had surgery to correct her toe-walking on both feet on June 20th and has since worked hard to relearn how to walk, balance, run, and kick. The strength my daughter has is amazing to me. She’s come through so much and continues to become stronger every day.
November brought vacation time for my Mom this month and I will say it was the best week for us all. She enjoyed her time with my brother and his family and we enjoyed our time together as a family without her around. We rarely get to do that since she is currently living with us but it gave us a nice peak into our future. I look forward to having that day to day in our lives again.
November brought us challenges. We discovered mold in our bedroom which had been covered by paint that wasn’t appropriate for it’s treatment. We also found our outer bedroom walls needed to be replaced. We worked with our landlord to make this happen and are happy to say our home is now repaired.
November brought Thanksgiving. We had a great family dinner. We shared what we were thankful for. That one meal fed us for almost a week on the leftovers.
November also brought our family a scare. The wildfire in Gatlinburg, Tennessee where my brother and his family currently live. Another disaster. More families without homes who have lost everything. I’m thankful that my brother, sister-in-law, nephews, their pets and their extended family in the area are all okay.
One this last day of November, I find myself glad it’s ending and praying that December comes with no problems, with nothing but blessings for everyone to finish out the year. I hope that the next year is a better one because this one has surely been a struggle for so many.
My thoughts and prayers are with everyone who have been affected by this years disasters. I pray that the next year will be a better one for us all!
by Dana