depression

Finding Peace in God’s Love {Thoughts From Me}

November 30, 2011 by Dana

It seems I always have 1000 things running through my head these days that I want to post about and yet I never do. I come to the blog, I open a post and yet I shut my mouth so to speak. Me at a loss of words! Can you imagine?

I try my best to avoid drama and it seems to be drawn to me like a bear to honey. It finds me, searches me out no matter how much I try to hide from it. I find that to be a huge reason behind my lack of inspiration in writing and sharing with others online lately. I’m sick of being drawn into the midst of some small drama that turns huge for no reason and I surely do not want that monster to find my sweet little blog!!

But I feel the need to write, to share, to talk, to guide, to let God speak through me as much as I’m able and to share my thoughts with others. Many of us feel that way, I know. I read wise words from my lovely friends and those who inspire us every day. I see God in these works and I want to see God in my work too.

Lately, I’ve been persuing my photography career thanks to my dear friends who have greatly encouraged me (you know who you are). It’s been time consuming and enjoyable all at the same time. I see God in their shoves and God in my work. Now I find myself wanting to see God in my words too. Is he there? Can I easily find him?

I personally don’t see it often enough. I feel the weight of the Devil on my thoughts and I try to avoid him like the plague. I feel depressed and discouraged, left abandoned and wanting for more from this life of mine. God can overcome all of this, I know. I have that faith in him. That mustard seed of faith that I must always keep just to perservere and tredge ahead in my personal world.

Tonite, I feel God calling me to do more. I feel him saying Grow, Blossom and share my love with others. Share your talents as I provide them, he says to me and so I am doing my best to do that both in my words and my photography. I am finding peace in my thoughts, peace in my words. Much needed peace that I don’t want to forget and can’t always find. By seeking Him I can find them though. And that is what I need to do more of.

I’m surely not alone in this need, to find peace and love and God all at once together. And in God is where I will find the three. Only in God. I know this. You know this. It’s what each of us seeks daily. His guidance and His Love.

There is so much more to do, to say, to be and yet His Love is enough. More than enough ever it will be.

Goodnight all.

Dana <3

Finding God in Children’s Disobedience

November 23, 2010 by Dana

Recently, my dear friend made a blog post about depression on her blog. In it, she spoke of how God looks at depression in us. All the things she posted she backed up with biblical reference. One of her mentions really struck me as truth in my own life. She mentioned that God changes children’s attitudes when you are depressed, and even when you’re not, in order to bring us to our knees. This is so very true in my life.

My beautiful daughter, Emmalee, who I mentioned last night in my post about sickness, is possibly my strongest, and my hardest child to raise. She wants things her way and will do everything to make that possible. She doesn’t throw fits, she doesn’t whine and cry but instead she will just do what she wants regardless of consequence or respect of my wishes. She is a messy but inspirational child. She is a loving but needy child. A perfect balance of good, and not-so-good all in one. And her little sister is not far off from her either, attitude-wise. Both of them are a true test for me in parenting, faith and life.

I have been looking for ways to deal with them, to learn how to live with their strong spirits and raise them as God wishes, teaching them to use their unique qualities to work for the Lord, instead of themselves. It never really dawned on me that part of their attitude is from the Lord, in order to change my own ways of life and my own attitude. God wants to bring me to my knees.

Why would I think that, you may be asking? Why would I think that God wants to bring me to my knees by causing me strife with these two beautiful children, or how could I even think that? Well, God wants all of us to be closer to him. He wants us to get down on our knees and call out to him, begging him to help us so that we are fully dependant upon him for guidance, love, and help. God is meant to be our encourager, our best friend, our Father and our confidant. It is the way of the world to turn us away from these things with him, the way of Satan to pull us apart from our Loving Father in Heaven. By bringing us to our knees, God is bringing us Home to Him, home where we belong. He is forcing us to pay attention, to listen to His Divine guidance, to share in His love and to share His love with our children and others.

Disobedience in children is all a part of God’s bigger plan to bring joy to our lives and our lives closer to him. This whole concept has completely changed my view in life when it comes to my children’s attitudes. It has helped me in my journey to be a better parent. This concept has challenged me, has shown me the truth behind what God wants from me. The crazy part is that it was there the WHOLE time, but I was just too stubborn to listen. Well, I am listening now and I am thankful for the sweet lady who God led to write this blog post on depression, for it has truly changed my own life and those of my children for the better.

“Don’t make God yell, listen the first time.”
– A friend from my past.

Just Blah {June 3. 2010}

June 4, 2010 by Dana

Georgetown, Harbor, South Carolina, Boats

Lately, I seem to have this overwhelming funk floating over my life that I can’t seem to get to go away. I can’t quite explain it, just an unknown sad waiting feeling that is hanging there. Everything in life seems to be right but nothing I do seems very satisfying or life-amending to me.

I feel at peace in my soul but still something is feeling lacking, undone, or as if it just hasn’t arrived yet. I’ve mentioned feeling like I’m waiting a lot lately, and in ways I suppose I am. I want to write, but I cannot grasp on a concept to write about. I have leads but none that pay off in the end.

I have so much that needs to be done but no idea where to start. As I said already, many things have started falling into place, but there is much more to come.

Maybe it’s life’s changes catching up to me or lack of sleep. Either way, I just wish I could remove the funk and pull the sunshine back into my life. Hopefully, tomorrow comes with a new rainbow and a shiny pot of gold to boot.