self worth

I woke up one recent day and realized I really don’t like myself. There are parts of me that I absolutely love and parts of me that need repair. There are lost parts that I’d like to find again and so many parts that I’d like to just change and remove from myself.

This year will be the year I work on all those things. I wish to find myself, my happiness and love and light again. I want to bring back the joy and the girl I should have been that I have allowed to be destroyed by life itself.

Life is a hard journey and it changes us, sometimes without even realizing it. Over time we stop doing things that we love, things that make us unique. We conform and just live day to day instead of really living life to the fullest. The journey becomes heavy and a struggle.

It’s time to find me – to bring to the front the joy of life and to live. No reason to be scared as I am who I am and who God made me to be. He has never failed me and He will not let me down. I want to shine as He intended me to and with His help and His blessing I will do just that.

Today is the first day of the year 2010. It has been a fairly good day overall. I was able to sleep in thanks to my hunny. I ate dinner with family, right down to the collards and black-eyed peas. I thank Ms. Virginia for her wonderful meal.

I have also started on my resolutions.

I have posted daily photo for my 365 days in Photos project.
I have re-organized my photos on the laptop from last year.
I have read my inspirational article for the day.

My inspirational article is from the Heart of the Matter online. Making Your Home a Haven was written by Jennifer Sikora, a loving, homeschooling mother of two. This article talks about housekeeping with the Lord’s help, by showing God’s love in each of your rooms, praying over the rooms and allowing the Lord to direct and live in them, as well as in you.

Housekeeping is a task I desperately dread. I am organizationally challenged. I am a procrastinator (there I admit it!). I would rather do anything, except clean and organize my house. I understand this is an inherited trait in my family but it is a trait that I am attempting to overcome.

Making Your Home a Haven has helped me to see that I should not be cleaning house for myself, or for my family but for the Lord. I should be allowing him to beautify my home and my life. These are the things I should be choosing to do for myself and my family to better their lives and home. God should shine throughout my life, not just in me but also in my home.

It is my goal, that by the end of 2010, my home will reflect my love for God and his immense LOVE for me and my family. I look forward to completing this goal and enjoying my time doing it.

1st Corinthians 10:31–Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.