It’s been almost two years since I’ve logged into this blog to update anything. I think sometimes we just burn out on writing and life and need a break from all we know. And when you are being stalked and harassed by two separate individuals in an effort to destroy your inner being, and your credibility it weighs heavy on the victim. That victim being me.
I have said before, mental health is a very real thing. These two individuals carry some deep issues and I sincerely hope they are dealing with them. I wish them the very best.
As for me, I’ve reached out multiple times to the husband of the one and have let him know of her antics in the past decade. I can only trust he will see fit to get her the help that she needs.
I’ve thought many times about coming here to write again but I have held back because of the abuse I was beneath at the hands of those persons. I let their angst damage my self worth and allowed their hatred to hold me back. But I’m ready now to speak out again.
The past two years have met me with good things and bad. I was diagnosed with Polycythemia and given a limited life expectancy. My physician has not completely determined if it is secondary or if it’s Polycythemia Vera at this time. Every few months, I have blood removed through phlebotomy to keep my heart pumping correctly and keep my alive.
Getting a diagnoses of Polycythemia is life altering. Not knowing that will happen or how it will affect me or even what has caused this change to my blood has been difficult. But then I remember we’re none promised tomorrow. Today is all we have.
Laycie, my sweet girl, is finally off of Epilepsy meds after 14 years of being on them. She is doing so wonderfully at this time but her seizure disorder will always be a part of her life. Hopefully, she will never have another visit from the Monster but we will always be on the alert for the effects of it.
So far we are working on health choices for her like drinking more water and eating well. The years of medications have really affected her body but she is willing to make the changes she needs to be healthier, and I couldn’t be prouder of that.
I’m hoping the future for us brings me back to blogging more. I have several things I’m contemplating, goals I’m creating, in the works. But I know overall, I’ve left a legacy in my children and with those I’ve helped along the path I’ve taken in my life. And if it never becomes more than this, I’m okay.