I set a date for writing… and I’ll be honest, I still haven’t began. Life happens. It’s busy. Kids come first. Hopes and dreams are put on hold.
When I was 17, I put life on hold. Originally, I wanted to go to college and become a teacher. I didn’t know what life had in store for me then or that I’d spend my entire life doing this one thing I loved (teaching), only with my own children by homeschooling.
I did know I wanted to be a wife, more than anything, and a Mother, more than anything. So I became a wife and then a Mother in the correct order expected. Unfortunately, I chose the wrong husband. I wasn’t taught to know how to choose this person or what to look for. I thought I’d found something but it wasn’t what it should have been. And life changed again.
Being a Mother though… that’s been the most wonderful experience, job, love of my life. I choose love over a career and I will never regret that. I have plenty of time for “work” after these four have grown. At this season, they’re my life’s work and I’m so very proud of that.
When I was in 10th grade, my English teacher whom I will always have high regards and extensive respect for, let me teach but when he was finished, he gave me some of the best advice of my life (though it’s taken me more than 20 years to follow it). He said, “don’t teach. Be a novelist.” Be a novelist has always stuck with me because he saw potential in my writing that even I can’t see.
So here I am, writing on this blog – my personal outlet – sharing my innermost thoughts and my heart with all of you. Some days I feel like it makes no sense, these ramblings from my soul and I feel they have no purpose but then I’m reminded that someone needs to hear what I have to say. I honestly don’t believe I was made to live silently.
For now, this is all I have time for. The book on our Epilepsy is partially written and I go back to it from time to time but with appointments and health issues, there isn’t a lot of time for writing. There will be a season for that once this season with my children is done and I do look forward to it.
For now though, they need their Momma to love them, to guide them, to hold their hands and provide the memories of life they’ll never forget. And I’m proud to do that. I’m proud to say this career of being a Mother is the most important thing I will ever do with my life. No amount of money can replace that.
Until next time…